how it felt

and you know what it felt like?

like you were in a room that used to be filled but had nothing in it now and

like you're dying but only your heart

and the whole world is just a grey cloud that you're floating in and you can just barely breathe

just enough to stay alive

like i was drowning in oxygen

and everyone in the room could breathe it but me

and like

i was buried 6 feet beneath a coffin

like someone was resting in peace just above me

but i was alive and breathing and

stifled.